I suppose, hypomanic would be most appropriate. I am in fact one of the "lucky" ones that only has BPII, I don't get those crazy highs. Sometimes I wish I did though, I just get the almost manic vibe and the extreme depression. Feeling like I got the short end of the stick.
Life has kind of sucked since last October, just over 8 months ago I was released from the hospital with a diagnosis of Ulcerative Colitis and a boat load of prescriptions, follow up appointments and medical bills. I digress, just recapping the craziness that is ALWAYS my life.
Fast-Forward to today. June 16th. 10:31pm. I'm manic, but cycling, while staying hypomanic. My mind is racing about a million projects that I want to work on right now, while my body is holding back tears. Mind you, I am not overly sad or upset by anything right now. (other than being out of treats)
I feel very isolated during this last cycle. Most people don't know how to handle it or what they can do to help. In the end, the answer is to push through it and fingers-crossed it gets better sooner rather than later.
Maybe its just pure exhaustion, or possibly my period. who fucking knows with me. UC isn't much worse than BP. Its one thing to have your body revolt against you. You know when something is wrong. but when its your brain that is all fucked up, well, you're screwed.
fuck it. putting on Numb3rs and passing the fuck out. tomorrow is hella busy and I have a feeling i'll be running on fumes again. woohoo. go me.
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