First, of hopefully many

I'm a 22 year old college student. Who has been living with bi-polar since I was about 10. I'm not claiming that my childhood was bad, or that a traumatic events made my life worse than anyone elses. I'm here, because what I have felt, said, experienced is definitely a part of who I am today.

I have been to the highest highs, and lowest lows. I've gone the route of sex, drugs, and alcohol to try to fill the emptiness that I've always felt. My only goal for this blog, is to share my story and inturn hopefully help someone else. I wont sugar coat my life, and i wont exagerate because it does no one any good. I'm going to tell my life story through my eyes.

I've always used writing as a means to express this abstract idea of bi polar. Not knowing what exactly it does, but knowing that it changed me. I'll share writings from my past, things i'm working on now, and share the life lessons that i've learned through this twelve year battle i've had with myself, my family, my friends, and the rest of the world.

You wont find any censorship in what I will put up here. I want to show the true raw nature of a disease that almost took my life. It isnt pleasant, and in some cases isnt legal. but this is my story and i hope you enjoy.