The thirty thousand dollar came to and end.....Then there's ????

Graduation weekend in winona was by far a successful shit show, given the circumstances. But thats for later.

There's this guy, whose been in and out of my life often since the beginning of the year. It's been hit or miss, depending on the various stages of drunkness. He's an asshole when we're not in the same town and he's drunk. But if I'm in town, then its 86% certain I'm staying at his house. When its him and me, Alex is the of the right type of guy for me. It's never boring with him, we always have something to talk about. God, we stay up normally til four or five in the morning just talking. The sexual attraction is an added bonus :)

Thing is, I cant tell if this is just a drunk thing and thats it. I should probably add in the fact that we've hung out once, sober, hour or so. we went swinging on his porch. talking, covered in a blanket. dammit I hate this, i am seriously a hopeless romantic. I never learn, i'm torn again; this is jordan all over again. I cant decide what to do or what might happen. blow me off completely, lead me on then just stop, or would it work. Now I am talking in circles. This ones got my mind spinning in all directions. Im moving to texas, how or why would I do this. lots of guys in texas, right!? he's got me so hooked on the feeling I get from him. It feels right, like with ant.

or maybe Im just trapped in my own little fantasy world and these feelings are real and I gotta move on. crazy little girl living in her own love filled world. lol.